I don't want to stay, I don't want to fall
I don't want to have to see you leave me

expectation kills


My dreams last night
1. i married this guy holding his kids in one hand, (some Egyptian era
was definitely not local sg.) couldn't see his face clearly but a very very cute,
dark and hunky guy -(Bonus bonus! =))Indeed he treated me really well too!
has! & we were so in love yo' ahh! oh wells, fairy tales fairy tales.
One of our parents were ministers so we were kinda wealth off to feed the large
family.
so that leads to the hind side, he had to always travel to defend the country. =(
The funny thing is that his war lasted for 1 minute and after that i will see him
back greeting me with the warmest hugs. :D
it seemed to real!

snaps back to reality.
work work work on monday, have no boyfriend that goes war for 1 min. has!

2.
Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to
Sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be, yeah
Where I wanna be

lifehouse - breathing.

alicia, peirong and 2 other were the worship leaders
(which i couldn't remember who)during that worship practice.
(i was found to be standing on stage, and i wonder what i was doing up there?
calefare i suppose. role: is to watch)
usual worship songs, then suddenly this guitar intro came.(for the top song)
which was very 'zai' and neat together he solo led. Sounded really like my itunes.
but, i was thinking:'hey! that sounded familiar?! and clearly that was not a worship song.
what is it doing there?' turned to worship leaders, they had no reaction at all.
okay this is weird.
but he was holding this oversized guitar was looked kinda funny from the normal usual
ones and the sound that it produced was queer - like from a sitar. has!
(okay, maybe he twitched it)

small sub dreams in the middle, but i couldn't remember.

Had my worst headache ever for the past 2 days.
Thursday night, couldn't sleep for the whole night cause as i lay there,
the pounding of my head came. slept like 30 mins.
Consequence was undesirable
Working day the next day was terrible. tired, aggrevated headache plus work-
time seemed to be dragging.
= super moody! sounded like i was pms-ing a whole lot.

Went home, down with last 2 pills of painkiller and tugged in
(even though there was that pounding of the head still,
the tiredness just helps me to shut my eyes and slp in.)
something that i much needed seriously
Still a lil pinch of headache still lingering but
it feels much better now compared to then. thank you Lord! :D